Caught in the grasp of Anxiety

It feels like something is squeezing my heart, and while it is doing so my heart is skipping a beat or two, all the while fluttering as if a bunch of butterflies were trying to escape a single cocoon at the very same time.

A feeling of doom, dread.  Surfacing or rather almost surfacing.  Trying to drown me just under the surface of a deep and dark ocean current.  Cold water pressing down on me, threatening to cause shock.

Eyes squeezed together, waiting for it to take me, but it never does.

Instead it continues to loom over me, threatening something it will never fully complete.  Squeezing my heart – putting fear in my body.  Showing glimpses of the chaos it can bestow on my life, tightening its hold on me with its many tentacles.

This is what anxiety was doing to me at 3:40 Am this morning.

18 thoughts on “Caught in the grasp of Anxiety

    1. It does. I was fortunate, for a while I wasn’t having very much of any, but the past little bit, since that last round of mania/hypomania I did. I am still not balanced back to my normal balance, instead I feel like I am moving in and out from balance to hypomania over the time.

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    1. Thank you, I wrote it while I felt it. I tried to describe it the best way I knew how and the writing helped calm me. I write several bits and pieces for articles to come during the time too.

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    1. I wrote this piece and then started and wrote several other pieces/ideas. I fell asleep around 6:30 am. Got 1 1/2 hours of sleep, but went back to sleep 9 and slept 3 1/2 more hours. So hopefully the grip of anxiety stays away from me for a while.

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    1. Thank you so much for the kind words. I am glad that you love the blog. It makes me feel good to know that people are reading and liking what they read.

      I will head over to your blog now and have a look, I think I have been there before 🙂

      Have a good day!

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