It feels like something is squeezing my heart, and while it is doing so my heart is skipping a beat or two, all the while fluttering as if a bunch of butterflies were trying to escape a single cocoon at the very same time.
A feeling of doom, dread. Surfacing or rather almost surfacing. Trying to drown me just under the surface of a deep and dark ocean current. Cold water pressing down on me, threatening to cause shock.
Eyes squeezed together, waiting for it to take me, but it never does.
Instead it continues to loom over me, threatening something it will never fully complete. Squeezing my heart – putting fear in my body. Showing glimpses of the chaos it can bestow on my life, tightening its hold on me with its many tentacles.
This is what anxiety was doing to me at 3:40 Am this morning.
Bipolar Whispers 
I know what that’s like. I hope it has now passed.
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It has. I fell asleep around 6:30 am. 🙂
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Ughhhh poor you … anxiety sucks ass.
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It does. I was fortunate, for a while I wasn’t having very much of any, but the past little bit, since that last round of mania/hypomania I did. I am still not balanced back to my normal balance, instead I feel like I am moving in and out from balance to hypomania over the time.
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Thanks for sharing this! It’s a great description of how anxiety feels; a good way to show others what it’s like. I’m sorry you had such a bad time of it x
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Thank you, I wrote it while I felt it. I tried to describe it the best way I knew how and the writing helped calm me. I write several bits and pieces for articles to come during the time too.
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I hope 4:20 AM was better.
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I wrote this piece and then started and wrote several other pieces/ideas. I fell asleep around 6:30 am. Got 1 1/2 hours of sleep, but went back to sleep 9 and slept 3 1/2 more hours. So hopefully the grip of anxiety stays away from me for a while.
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I hope it does, but anxiety is a b****y tenacious thing.
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Yes it is. Can I be b!%chy back at it?
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Why the eff not?
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Yes!
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Sorry you had a night like that. UGH! Symptoms are the worst.
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Thanks. I hate it, as I imagine everyone does.
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A beautifully written depiction of what anxiety feels like.
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Thank you so much. I wrote it right in the throws of it. I wrote to try to calm me, as writing seems to help with most of my issues.
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I love your blog! I think its so great that you address mental health problems, I am sorry that you have to cope with one.
I just recently started my own blog that concentrates a lot on mental Illness, so please check it out if you have time!
have a lovely day xo
http://www.lozzieknows.com/
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Thank you so much for the kind words. I am glad that you love the blog. It makes me feel good to know that people are reading and liking what they read.
I will head over to your blog now and have a look, I think I have been there before 🙂
Have a good day!
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