Like a boat sailing in the distant fog

I was just talking to a friend about writing.  We both write, we both have blogs, and she was saying how she was not sure what direction to go in and I mentioned how I feel my writing slipping away from me.

I replied to her with the following:

I hope you are able to find a path. I am frustrated at the moment, my writing is slipping away from me like some boat sailing in the distant fog, I can see it but I cannot get to it.  And it is very frustrating to say the least.

That very message is what perked my writing of this post.  I liked the way I formed the sentence, so I thought, why not, if I am not able to get my mind to work to write about something else I can at least write about my lack of writing.

So as you have all read in my past posts.  I had my knack for writing gone for over a year.  With the new mania I began writing again, in fact I could not write enough.  I was almost in a constant state of writing, and I was in bliss.   I began Bipolar Whispers in hopes that by sharing some of my writing it could at least help someone, somewhere.

I never imagined it would pick up as quick as it did, and I am thankful for my readers, their comments, and their likes and shares.

But lately, as I am sure some of you have noticed, my writing has been few and far between, and not as elaborate.

I am sort of blaming it on the medications that are keeping the mania just under the surface.  They seem to be stomping on my creative flow.  I hate this.

It is times like this when I feel like taking all the medications, tossing them out and saying “forget it”.  But I also know what happens when I am not medicated.  My husband and my family are too important for me to go unmediated and risk getting really sick again.

So I am writing bits and pieces, trying to work through the little bit of writers block that I am currently experiencing.

As I sit here watching that ship sailing just on the horizon in the fog, I realize that it is at least still in sight, I can at least try to get closer to it.  It is closer to me then it was a year ago when I thought I had my writing capabilities lost forever.  I will fight to get to it again, even if I have to swim the distance.

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17 thoughts on “Like a boat sailing in the distant fog

    1. I’m at a crossroads as to whether it is the meds that are keeping the mania at bay doing this or the amount of stuff going on within our little family at this time.

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  1. I lost all interest in writing my old story blog when the deep depression took over. Then I decided to do more of journal blog and the blog has grown exponentially and I am amazed at what I can write now. Including new poems that right now are flowing since I am hypo-manic. Stories about my real life. It feels good to get it out.

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    1. I love my writing when manic. Right now I am stable, other then this anxiety that I have been having for a while. But I think that is family related we just have so much going on. I will head over and have a read of some of your stuff, I have not kept up with reading stuff lately because of the issues within our family.

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      1. I hope things are getting better for your family. I write better when manic myself. My other blog has the new stuff I just wrote and then deeper in is the other stuff.

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  2. I write ok either way. Because of tardive Dyskinesia from Geodon, I’ve not been able to take enough of Seroquel, Abilify, Invega or Latuda or older drugs that stabilize and de-intensify mood states. My computer guy comes here tomorrow. I had quite the Goround with someone from XLibris, Don’t want surprise costs down the line, as I was warned about that, so I kept pressing about marketing guidance and other stuff that probably is needed to get a book published and ‘out there.’ Like their “Buy Back” program. Then the lady got really mean and insulting. I walked away thinking that my book is my Baby and she kicked it like it was a soccer ball.

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