The past day or so I have found myself exhausted but not tired, not sleepy…..just exhaustion clouding my mind.
At the same time I have found that I do not have much patience. I want to do about 10 things at the same time. Sit. Write. Watch a show. Clean. Do dishes. Read etc. And because of this I have little patience with myself.
And at that very same time I want to do nothing.
And I still feel Flat.
There was a time when I loved the flat feeling because that meant I did not have to feel anything. No hurt, no pain, nothing. I relished it.
In the flat, I just was. I did not have to “be” anything more.
I no longer love the flat. In fact I do not even ‘like’ it anymore.
I hate being here.
Ohhh I went through a long flat phase, it was on either Latuda or Lamictal, I can’t remember which. I found it to be hell to have no affect. I hope it gets better for you ❤
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Thanks hun. I am hoping it does not last long, it hasn’t been here real long yet so “crosses fingers”
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Ugh flat land is so… Empty. Kind of like being on auto pilot and unable to enjoy the view. Blarg. Hoping it gets a move on for you soon {Hugs}
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That is exactly it. I hate it. Sometimes I believe it can be worst than the depression, worst than the fog. Hoping it does not last long. (hugs)
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Yes it can be, but it doesn’t last as long, thank the heavens. You’ll get through it {Hugs}
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Thanks, hugs back
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