In the past 144 hours (6 days) I have slept 24.5 hours in total, and all very very broken sleep. The most I have slept in a row is about 1.5-2 hours. Some of those days I only slept 2.5 hours and one of them I managed to sleep 6 hours, but it was absolutely brutal trying to get all of those 6 hours. They were extremely broken. The time I slept 6 hours I never took any meds. Tonight I haven’t taken any again to see if I can sleep, but it is already after 4 AM and I am here writing.
I don’t feel manic or anything, I just don’t seem to need sleep or can’t sleep. The only symptoms I am having other than issues with sleeping is maybe little tingles in my arms and body from the lack of sleep and a little bit of fuzzy-ness that seems to come and go.
I am however having trouble distinguishing between what I have dreamed and reality. It only happened the one time. Today I tried to sleep, I dreamed that my daughter came home and I had a conversation with her at 12:30 ish (that was the time in the dream). When I woke up I thought that the conversation was truth, absolute. But she was not even home, she was in school for the day. I actually woke up and asked my husband if she had come home from school, I thought it really happened. And although I know it did not happen I still almost feel like it did.
I am trying really hard right now to make my self sleep at least some, so I know that I am for the most part of sound mind. We have some appointments coming up this week that I need to be able to function in, so I am really concerned about this lack of sleep and what it could mean, if anything.
Anyway, just wanted to update a little, as I am really trying to begin writing and blogging more.
How is everyone?
Oh i can’t even imagine I could sleep so little…if I don’t sleep 7-8 hrs = I’m totally worthless. I mean I have to cook, to walk dogs, to clean, to iron…if u don’t sleep u don’t have power to do all that 😱😱😱
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Not sleeping for me is usually the first decent into hypomania, but so far this time I have either managed to just get enough or this is not what it is. I have been having a hard time getting things done for the past month anyway with the bit of depression I have been having, I just want to crawl into bed and stay there, whether or not I actually sleep.
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U have to plan your day…& try to sleep at night. If u’ll plan and try to do what u can (even small steps counts, even 1-2 small things u planned = already good!)..u probably will feel better
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Write write write…ppl r reading
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Thanks so much that means a lot to me. Sometimes when I write and ramble I wonder…..and lately my writing has been so seldom and a lot different than when I first started that I did honestly wonder
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Sure, a lot of ppl r reading..I don’t comment veeeeerryyy often, but I read a lot here :)) ✌️🤗🙃
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Thanks for reading!
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