A few of my personal Depression signs.

Are you finding yourself not enjoying things that normally bring you joy? Is your sadness deeper than usual?

Here are a few of my personal signs that the depression side of Bipolar Disorder has arrived for me.

  • Hopelessness: I feel like everything around me is hopeless, everything I do is hopeless, my future is hopeless.
  • Dread/Disinterest: I have this deep down dread of doing anything outside my home. I have no interest in doing things with my friends, no interest in going to gatherings, and no interest in doing things that I normally take part in.
  • Irritability: I am irritated. Different irritation than manic irritation. Everything is bothering me and playing on my last nerve and I usually hold it all in until I end up exploding over something and letting it all bubble to the surface.
  • Sleep: Normally I am sleeping more than normal, but there have been times when I have had the opposite effect and have slept less than normal. More often than not its the sleeping more.
  • Inadequate: I always feel like I am not enough. Not enough of a wife. Not enough of a mother. That I am not doing a good job at anything. I feel insignificant. Like a speck of dust.
  • Anxiety: Worry and anxiety over things I normally wouldn’t worry about.
  • Weight gain: I eat my feelings. Enough said.
  • Deep emotional pain.

2 thoughts on “A few of my personal Depression signs.

  1. I am 47 years old and after 30+ years of struggling have recently been diagnosed with Bipolar 2. I’ve been treated since my teenage years for anxiety and depression but none of the medications really ever seemed to help! It’s been a struggle to hold down a job for a long period of time. I’m a married (20 years) mother of two. My depression phases sound exactly like you described! My manic phases tend to not last very long, but I seem to blow a lot of money and make irrational decisions while they persist! I’m sorry you suffer too – it’s so hard and the guilt is overwhelming at times because I never feel like I’m good enough for my family – I always feel like I let them down! Thank you for sharing your journey. Although I don’t wish this upon anyone, it’s reassuring to know there are others going through the same feelings/emotions that are still able to function! Bless you 💕

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    1. Hi there, thank you for reaching out and sharing your experience. I feel the same way you do, that it is reassuring to have others who understand but wouldn’t wish this on anyone.

      I was diagnosed in 2012, so took me a while to get diagnosed and treated properly as well, I was 29/30 years old when I got a proper diagnosis. I have been doing quite well over the past year or so. How are you doing?

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