Its the little things.

Its the little things in life that make me truly happy. Little gestures that make me smile and know just how lucky I am. Little things in my every day life that just swell my heart. Here are a few pictures over the past week or so that just made me smile.

*Note: The note was next to my computer from my 17 year old daughter*

What things made you smile this week?

At a friends cabin
I spent a lot of time driving yesterday (8 hours) It was a beautiful day for it!
And my biggest smile this week was finding this note from my 17 year old daughter next to my computer. ❤

Guest bloggers, and an update

Just a quick update. Bipolar Whispers blog is fully back up and running. As you can see I have changed the theme/layout, all blog posts have the updated signature, some have been edited and some have been deleted.

I have added my social media information:

Facebook
Instagram
Twitter
Email: bipolarwhispers@gmail.com

Interested in being a guest blogger on Bipolar Whispers, email me at bipolarwhispers@gmail.com

I did this a few times in the past and am interested in doing a few more guest posts again in the future. If this is something that interests you feel free to email me at bipolarwhispers@gmail.com .

In the blog post I can add an image or two, your blog address, social media or anything else that might be relevant.

Finally, is there something you would like to see me blog about? Comment below with any blog ideas and I will do my best to write about them.

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So I spent the majority of yesterday and the majority of today sleeping.  I slept 11 hours Tuesday night, then another two Wednesday afternoon then another 3 (slept off an on) Wednesday evening.  By 11:30 Wednesday night I was in bed, and I would say by 12:30 asleep.  I Never woke up until about 11 this morning.  By 1:15 I was back in bed and slept till after 5.

I woke up in a extremely bad mood.

I have cried off an on several times since yesterday.  My emotions are all over the place today. I have been dreaming really bad dreams.

I feel like I have checked out of reality for 2 days and everything around me is a mess.  And everything inside me is in a huge shamble.  Crumbling.  I am hurting, I am crying inside and outside, I am frustrated and I just want to crawl under a rock and cease to be.

I do not know why.

I got upset with my husband over dumb things, I know they are dumb things but I cannot stop myself.

I told him that when I am upset and stuff and something is wrong it would be nice to just ask how I am and want a genuine answer.  I also told him that I wish at some point in his life that he has to deal with mental illness within himself because its no a picnic, its harsh.

Truth be told I do not wish mental illness on anyone, I just wish that he would understand sometimes.

I feel in the recent years, that we have drifted….or maybe its just my jaded mind today.

Small update

Small update.

Slept 11 hours.  Got up for and hour and a half.  Went back to sleep for 2 hours. Got up for 4 hours or so.  Had a hot bath and then dozed in and out of it for 3 hours.  This is now 3 1/2 hours later and I am still tired.  I just took my nighttime meds, see how it goes.

Apparently when the hubby came to bed around 2 am I spoke 25 or so words to him which he could not understand because they came out like gibberish.  I however have no recollection of any of that.  Do not even remember him coming to bed.

I honestly did not expect the med to make me sleep, I did not feel the need to sleep.  But I guess my body was ready to sleep.

Today I have felt a slew of emotions.  From tiredness as I have already mentioned, to groggy, foggy, tingly, and very frustrated.  I have even cried.

I am not sure what to feel right now…