Days like these

I am irritated today, it came on quickly and I don’t know why. It has been a week of not the best sleep, some moderate anxiety off and on, and our youngest son has been sick almost the entire week. I guess I can attribute these stressors to what I am feeling. I honestly just want to crawl into a dark hole and sleep.

I don’t know what is wrong, it’s the time of year where I should be relishing in the sun, it’s an absolutely beautiful day outside, sun is shining and it is very warm…but here I sit, wallowing in some discomfort within my mental and emotional self.

Something that I can hardly pin point.

But it is there in a big way, like my elephant in the room, demanding to be heard and seen.

I hate days like today. When I have no rational reason for what is going on inside me. Those are the worst for me, the days that I cannot explain.

Days I do not want to be touched, I don’t want to be talked to, and I do not have the energy or nerve to deal with anything or anyone.

I am struggling to just deal with myself today….

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Mental health blogger. Bipolar, PTSD, OCD, Anxiety. Lover of butterflies. Risen out of the ashes like a phoenix. Survivor. Contact me at: Email: bipolarwhispers@gmail.com Twitter: @bipolarwhisper
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12 Responses to Days like these

  1. hbhatnagar says:

    This day will pass, like the rest, one moment at a time. I wish you peace.

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  2. You have captured my exact emotions. Thank you for making me see I’m not alone.

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  3. sophiaunbound says:

    i’ve had a bunch of these days lately. and for me it seems to be the weather. these rainy days i could have sworn i used to love, now leave me curled up in my apartment wondering when they will end.

    i guess we all just have to take it one day at a time.

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    • bipolarwhisper says:

      We haven’t had the best weather since June came in either, but today was beautiful. I took time to sit outside and read a book after and it helped a lot. I hope that the weather gets better for you and you start feeling better too.

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      • sophiaunbound says:

        Oh, it’s finally subsiding and letting me function a little bit better. I just never thought the saying “depends on your weather would be so literal for me.

        Good to know the fresh air helped. I’m either waiting for mild weather or fall myself. Being heat sensitive is not fun in the summer.

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      • bipolarwhisper says:

        Fall is my favorite time of the year, jeans and sweater weather. I love it.

        Like

      • sophiaunbound says:

        I can keep wearing skirts, and maybe a few of my heavier tops with no issue. I love the colder weather so much more. Though slowly but surely hrt might be lessening my cold tolerance.

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      • bipolarwhisper says:

        I dislike winter. We get a ton of snow here and I just hate it. I am not one for super hot weather, I do enjoy the sunshine etc but the heat can be brutal.

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  4. ZOE says:

    I totally relate to this.

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