Monthly Archives: February 2017

Sometimes.

Sometimes the despair and destruction and chaos inside is more real than the conversation or situation that I am in.  To the point where I forget things because of the devastation that I am going through at that particular time. … Continue reading

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Please don’t, Please do.

Please don’t underestimate me because of my illness. Please don’t Judge me because of my illness. Please don’t feel threatened by me because of my illness. Please don’t leave me out because of my illness. Please don’t forget the good … Continue reading

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Sleep disturbances.

In the past 144 hours (6 days) I have slept 24.5 hours in total, and all very very broken sleep.  The most I have slept in a row is about 1.5-2 hours.  Some of those days I only slept 2.5 … Continue reading

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Started med.

Finally built up the nerve to take the first of the Zoloft last night. (Feb 6th) Every since my bad reaction to Lithium I am nervous taking new medications.  Even stuff I have taken before makes me a little nervous. … Continue reading

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Resuming medication

After 9 and 1/2 months med free…… Zoloft New one for me.  I may have taken it for a short while when I was hospitalized back in 2012, but I am not completely sure as I was hospitalized for 5 … Continue reading

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Drowning

I am underwater.  Looking up I can see a dim filtered light but I am unable to break the surface.  I am suffocating, water leaking into my lungs.  I am drowning. Sinking deeper and deeper beneath the surface. I am … Continue reading

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