Category Archives: Bipolar Disorder

In the darkness.

When I close my eyes I see a darkness, in the darkness I see a shimmer, in the shimmer I see a reflection, in the reflection I see a beast, the Bipolar Beast.

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Bipolar as an adjective

A Bipolar journey is one of extremes, one of differences, emotions, opposites.  To me, in my eyes it is a spectrum.  The spectrum of someone with Bipolar Disorder can be so vast that many times I feel like no two … Continue reading

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Zoloft Crazy?

That moment when… the depression is so bad you feel like you have failed everyone and everything and as much as you want to go to sleep and not wake up you have to keep on breathing. Such was me … Continue reading

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Resuming medication

After 9 and 1/2 months med free…… Zoloft New one for me.  I may have taken it for a short while when I was hospitalized back in 2012, but I am not completely sure as I was hospitalized for 5 … Continue reading

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Drowning

I am underwater.  Looking up I can see a dim filtered light but I am unable to break the surface.  I am suffocating, water leaking into my lungs.  I am drowning. Sinking deeper and deeper beneath the surface. I am … Continue reading

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How do I survive my own mind?

I am a survivor.  I have thought those words so many times during my life time. I have survived things that many have never had to endure.  And I say that knowing that there are people out there who have … Continue reading

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I am calm, yet I am frantic.

I am calm, yet I am frantic. Some of the manic madness from yesterday has subsided in some ways but heightened in others. My brain is a mess. My thoughts are chaos. But my speech has slowed down some, or … Continue reading

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